Hmmmm...maybe?

We couldn't be this lucky, could we? I mean we just went off BC, could I truly be pregnant. I was going through my "symptoms". I still think it might all be in my head. This morning I was like no, I'm not pregnant. This is in my head. While I was thinking that, bang I got this huge wave a nausea. Seriously. I am still feeling queasy. I guess we will find out Sunday...or maybe it is the Swine Flu (j/k).

A Clean Office

TD and I went nuts this morning at the office. We tackled BL's desk and ALL the mark ups that he kept under his desk. Then we hit the plan and server room and went through all the junk on there. Next was the flat files in the back room. When we got done, the only papers were those on TS's desk. Everything else has been properly filed (except what we are personally working on and even that is limited. It feels good to have th office cleaned up. We just get lazy and it is easier to put stuff on the flat surfaces to be filed later, but then later never comes. I know I do the same thing at home. The problem at home is that is just me and there is a greater diversification of papers. When it is plans it is ok this is old, this a copy, etc and I know what to do with it. At home, it is just oh crap, what do I do with this.

Last night I went to Aerobics at church. It was fun. Bill was feeling really bad yesterday. I wish I knew what to do with him. I was really looking forward to going home and see we couldn't get me knocked up and then he could barely move. Let alone that. Oh well, if it doesn't happen this month. There is always next month and the next month and the next one. :)

What a week

It was not personally overly crazy. I was just at Tan-Tar-A for a conference Wed-FRi. That was nice, but boohoo i missed Bill. I've been a bit clingy since I got home. But the conference was good and I plan on going back next year unless I have a newborn. :)

Mom said Tuesday both Sue R and Sue W died. I think they were both 70, which really isn't that old, is it? Sue R's daughter is 3 years older than me. She had contracted ensephilitius last summer and they treated it as a stroke for several days before they realized it wasn't a stroke. By then it was too late. The damage was done. Her poor daughter got married last summer and her mom was in a vegative state and just never came out of it. Sue W had pancreatic cancer. She went for emergancy surgury Monday and was gone on Tuesday. So sad. Mom said they were college roomies and came to Henry together to teach. I never knew that. Funny how you only learn about things when people die.

Then Wednesday Kristin emailed me and said she had moved in with Ian in Evanston. I am really happy for her. They are getting married in Nov and it makes me super happy. Then ironically Kathryn emailed me Thursday to say that she and Loan bought a house and she'll be moving in with him in May. Yeah. My engaged friends are finally going to get to live in the same town as their fiance's for the first time in years.

Today while the confirmation class was meeting I was talking to Daniel. He asked me when Bill and I were going to have kids and I was like whenever. You know 9 or 10 months. LOL. I kind of blushed when I said that. Then I asked if he and Michelle were going to have #2, he was like we're trying. We kind of laughed at the people who have it all planned out. I wish. God definately has a little something to say about it. Bill was a little embarassed that I actually told Daniel 9 or 10 months, but its Daniel. Plus it helped that he and Michelle are trying. While we aren't really close to them for a number of reasons, they are nice and good parents with similar values. (Although Michelle is super bossy).

Happy Easter and some randomness

This weekend was great. From getting off work early on Friday and making up a recipe for chicken cordon blea, to the easter egg hunt and watching little Delaney while confirmation class was going on on Saturday. Sunday was raining, but Sunrise service and breakfast was a blast. Plus we finally learned our song and regular service rocked. Watching Janine just belt out the songs and kind of dance it just is fun. Plus Alex was hilarious swaying between his brother and Lucas. Then yesterday Bill and I were all ummm romantic. Took a bath together cuddled on the couch. Then in the evening we played a firous game of dominos. Our poor children hopefully will never realize how uber competitve we are. I got pissy and told Bill to sleep on the couch (which I ironically he did, but not because I said so). All in all it was a good weekend.

My mom has repeatedly made the comment that when she is in her 80s that she will not have to be told to go to an assisted living, that she (and dad) will do it on their own. In fact, they have mentioned that in about 10 years they will probably sell the house and move to something smaller. It is a little crazy that they have planned that far ahead, but all the trouble that they have had with their parents and aunts have left them SAYING that they will move on their own. I guess every generation that lives a little longer has their own issues to think about. Hopefully, in 50 years I'll know my limitations as well.

RIP Nick Adenhart

I don't know him. Didn't know the name until about 11 am this morning. Oh, about 10 am there was an article on MSN about how the kid pitching for the Angels last night made them forget about their other injuries, but I skimmed the article. 2 hours later, we hear that kid is dead. Unbelievable. A drunk driver blows a stop light and 3 lives are lost. Nothing that doesn't happen every week across America, but for a kid who just pitched 6 scoreless innings in his 4th big league game it makes news. It makes us sit up and take notice. It is also unbelievable. He lived his dream the last night of his life. His last inning he through ALL strikes.

I've been reading all the comments and someone said "There is baseball in heaven and God needed another pitcher". It makes me cry. It is far sadder than Josh Hancock or Darryl Kile and on par with the football players that went missing at sea. My thoughts and prayers are with his family and friends.

Maundy Thursday

Today is Maundy Thursday. The night that I believe really starts to define Christianity. After all, tonight is the night that Jesus took the bread and the wine for the last supper. Tonight is the night he goes to the garden and prays. Tonight is the night he is arrested and beaten. Tomorrow, Good Friday, he is put on "trial" forced to carry his cross and then hung on that cross to die. Saturday, all of his followers sat around and mourned, unable to do anything because it was their sabath. Then Sunday the tomb is empty. I think more momentous than the 4 days is that on Palm Sunday he rode into Jerusalum victorious. The people laid their coats on the ground. In a span of 4 days, public opinion changed that much. I mean public opinion on George W. Bush didn't change that fast in 4 days. How can you be victorious on Sunday and Public Executed on Friday? To this day it boggles my mind.

We're singing Go Cubs Go ...

Go Cubs Go
Hey Chicago What do you say
The Cubs are going to win today.

I know it is just opening day. 161 Regular season games remain. Up to 19 post season games are possible. But what a GREAT way to start the year. Beating the stalwart ace of a divisional rival. It doesn't matter that the 'Stros are going to send Wandy Rodrigios to the mound today. No not at all. What matters is the TEAM had an awesome day. Not just Big Z. Not just Soriano or Rameriez. But Fontenot, Soto, and Theriot (and I LOVE the combination of them hitting in that order, AWESOME fundementals ... although Theriot is the one without any power so maybe he needs to be higher up, but whatever). DLEE didn't get on base, but his D rocked our worlds. Milton Bradley (who names their child MILTON with a last name of Bradley, come on parents ... it is almost as good as Wandy) played a solid left field and drew a walk. Heilman threw 1 pitch and got 2 outs. Marmol was filthy (although a bit wild) and Gregg was interesting, but my god he reminds me of Charlie Sheen in Major League. Since the Cards blew it in the 9th to the Pirates, the Cubbies are currently tied for first with the Pirates. I can handle that.

It is a long year and I am sure my faith in the Cubs may waver from time to time, but playing like they did last night, it is going to be a great year. I will certainly enjoy the ride.

On a side note, since the game was at 6 pm, I decided I would work out during the game. Wow was that a good idea. I hadn't had a solid elipitcal work out in about a month and with Soriano leading off with a homerun it was the motivation I needed to get a 400+ cal burn in (I know that is not accurate, but I think it is a good way to judge the intensity of my workouts).

Just another day in the neighborhood

Well first off, I am definately not pregnant. I basically started my period in the middle of my solo. I'm ok with that. I want to be able to go to Kristin's wedding in November and I want to go home for Christmas and baby in the middle of December would put a damper on either of those.

Next up, the cantata went great. It really did. Anne had some trouble on her solo, but you know the audience did not know at ALL. Janine came up afterwards and slugged me in the arm and said "I crucified thee" (which was the last line of my solo and I tried to put some emotion and kind of belt it out there, which apparently I did a good job. :) ). Of course with our cantata we kind of skip the whole Palm Sunday experience. Which meant we didn't sing any of the good Palm Sunday songs. But eh. There is always next year. Besides we don't skip the Easter part of it. :)

Finally, Bill is a little concerned driving his car. I'm wondering if it might be worth it to spend $5000 on a commuter car for me and then he can have the truck. Because if he does go into business for himself, I am going to have to drive the car. It needs new tires (again, $500 worth of tires every year and half). I don't know. Something 4-door to bridge the gap between now and when we can spend $15k on a newer to us vehicle. But looking at stuff, what we get may not be that much better than what we have. But something 4-door would surely be better when we have a baby. I don't know. I guess I won't worry about it. Cars are hubby's thang. Not mine.

Psyching Myself Out

I don't know WHY I am even thinking this is possibe. I was on the pill as usual through the end of the pack (wednesday). Plus we barely had sex last month. But I have been nausous EVERY EVENING this week. Starting Sunday. Not puking, but just the stomach kind of rolls and I can't even think about eating. I'm suppose to start my period tomorrow or Monday. If I don't get it by Sunday, I am going to test. I want to be pregnant. I want to have Bill's baby and I am tired of waiting. But how wild would it be if I was pregnant. That would a miracle for sure. God has a plan and lord if I am pregnant I don't think I could possibly doubt again, because there should be no way. NONE. I hope I am. Even though a December baby is not in our plans, but whatever. A baby is always in God's plan. :)

No more Birth Control

... at least for a few years. That is right. Since wednesday was the last of my pills, I asked Bill if he minded if I went off the pill now. Not that we would necessarily try now, but just that an oops could occur. He goes "why not, I'm not getting any younger." He is also suppose to go on Chantix today. The increase in the price of cigarrettes along with hopefully me getting pregnant gave him the kick in the butt he needed.

We have a TREE!

I drove up this evening and we had tree in our front yard! A tree in our front yard. No joke. I knew Bill was having "coffee" with a friend this morning, so I knew where it came from but it was just like Sally and Jerome seriously did not get us a tree. Yep. Yep they did. Too cool. I love them.

Does a good rehearsal mean a bad performance?

I guess we will find out sunday because we had a good rehearsal on our Cantata last night. A couple songs we went through twice, but that was more because of timing issues. I was impressed. We really came together the last 2 weeks. Everyone kept telling me how impressed they were with me and my solo (which wasn't that great, I keep needing to work on my breath control for the second line) and that I have it memorized (really, you can't memorize 4 sentences when you have 4 weeks to do it). Anyway, it feels good even though I expect more of me. I am such a perfectionst. My plans have to be perfect. My singing has to be perfect. My cooking has to be perfect (well at least taste good). If company is coming, my house has to be perfect. I want to be the perfect wife (at least perfect for my husband). I realize I set the bar super high for myself. I keep wondering why I wasn't this much of a perfectionist in band in high school, but lets face it ... I didn't like it that much. I like singing, a lot. I like my job. I like cooking. I like showing off my house to company.

Of course the biggest thing with singing a solo is that I get NERVOUS. People don't realize how nervous I really get. Afterwards, I just shake. To get through this practice and last Sunday's practice I had to just close my eyes and sing. Not very attractive, but if that is the way to get
through it; I will do it. Hopefully, Sunday I will be able to look at the audience. If not, the cross is right there for me to stare at and no one will know the difference.

Anyway, I need to get back to doing a perfect job and my latest project (god I HATE this client). He needed to hire a contractor because he runs a collection agency and does not know ANYTHING about engineering and he has completely screwed the project up. (10' of fill and he didn't understand that it NEEDS to be compacted.

Are you kidding ME! We want to camp!

So, I have started to researching for our vacation. We want to camp at the locations we are going to be more than one night. I was looking at Niagra Falls and OH MY GOD! The KOA on the Canada side has a TENT CAMPING SITE with NO HOOKUPS for $48 a night. For that I am going to stay in hotel THANKS! Good grief. UGH! I need to get my days where we are going to be each night figured out so I can make some reservations. I think we are going to end up at private places because KOAs and National Parks (which we learned last year when went to Ally Springs/Jacks Fork) are just too expensive. It is for a TENT people, why, why, WHY! Anyway, I love everyone saying oh just pitch a tent, you'll save money....not always.

OK, I ran some rough numbers on our vacation:
Gas: 4000 miles (yeah this is crazy, but our trip is 3500 without any "side trips")/18 mpg (taking the truck, this probably right on) = 222.222222 gallons (cause you know it is going to be exact) * $3/gallon (high or low, I don't know, we are still 6 weeks away) = $666.6666 or we'll round up and say $800
Lodging = 14 nights, assume $20 for camping (research backs up this number) and $70 for hotels. Lets assume we will camp 6 nights = 6*20 + 8*70 = $680 (I really hope we camp more). 2 nights I should actually be with relatives (actually another night we will be with my parents, but I did not count that).
Ok that takes to about $1500. I will say we will try to stay under $2000, but factor in Maid of the Mist at Niagra and perhaps a boat trip at Bar Harbor and eeeeekkkk it adds up QUICK!